Gotta Love You♥ My life might as well be written down for everyone to explore(:

Man has February been a roller-coaster. 

I can’t tell whether I’ll go up or down from here, anymore.

Birthday — the 6th, it was just a regular day, didn’t mind it really.

Valentine’s Day — 14th, it was very special actually. “Blind” date that turned out swimmingly with a nice dinner, train ride and a late arrival home. It was my first real date, spoke for about 2 hours.

Random day — 25th, went over to said person’s house and had a great 4 hour chat. Kept making me feel like I was actually going to make an exception for high school boys, ya know?

Today — 27th, got that god awful dreaded text explaining that said person wasn’t looking for a relationship due to a serious recent one; and even with such a depressing text, it was said in a nice way. I know what you’re thinking, how can that be nice? I can’t say I didn’t expect it. I did a little, but was more in denial, ya know? Bad enough I’ve liked him for 3 years. 

7:56 p.m. — What do I do now? Of course before this whole thing happened, I was like, “alright, sure, I’ll wait for college,” but it’s so painful. He’s great to look at and it showed potential. He’s so sweet and caring and…yeah okay, stop! 

What do I do to get out of this, it’s horrible! Is it a good thing now, that I don’t actually see him constantly throughout my day? I really have no clue. I was a giddy girl again, so short lived.

Man, my life is a doomed romance novel all the way around. Every day I go through, it get’s a little bit more complicated. I thought it was simple, all I had to do was tolerate the day then BOOM. Something exciting happens and then it dies down.

Is it possible that he’ll change his mind soon? Doubt it. Who knows, only time will tell. Maybe time can be a little lenient for me. Or fortune? Something?

…Please?